Will I? Won’t I?
There’s a really cool performance piece that is a part of Playback Theatre. Two players physically enact an internal dilemma, or conflict. Naturally, it’s called Conflicts. 
It’s great fun to watch because most of us can relate to an internal dilemma: small or big. Will I eat this piece of cake or not? Should I stay in bed a little longer or get up and go to the gym? Will I buy this house, marry this person?
It’s great fun to play as well – finding arguments to support the position you’re playing.
So here’s (just) one of my current internal conflicts. I’m self-employed. I usually get enough work. At the moment I don’t have a lot of work coming up. Should I get out there and chase work? Or should be grateful for the space to write that book?
What internal conflicts are you struggling with?
The question of “How much work is the right amount of work” seems to be even more pressing for people like us who employ ourselves in selling our passion to the waiting (?) world… In most of my colleagues (and myself at times) I see that belief that you have to sell as much time as you can (judged by the market, not your own capacity), always rushing close to the edge of collapsing. Because you can’t afford not to. But would there ever be a point, where you actually could afford to work at a slower pace? Would it be a certain level of wealth? Or a certain level of “being established”?